Sunday, May 30, 2010


Yep that's me. A hermit !!! This 3 day weekend is making me into a hermit !!!! I love being home, I love just doing nothing...while eating !!! Mmmhhmm...
I now have a new addiction....Works With Friends. A game I can play on my itouch that is linked through facebook. OMG, it is so awesome. Being a hermit this weekend has allowed me to play like 10 games at a time. I think I need an intervention !!!!

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Hot Dogs and Chardonnay...

I have been craving hot dogs for such a long time, so I finally bought some and am having them for dinner with some Chardonnay !! And not just any Chardonnay now....oh no....Vampire Chardonnay !!! Yep, it was a Christmas gift from a co-worker. I will tell you that it is not the best, however some is better than none !!! :)
My stepdads trip to Washington was good. It turned out much better than we hoped. So now that their stuff is out of there they can continue to plan and figure out what they want to do. I am not setting my hopes up on anything. It seems that everytime I set my hopes up on anything it completely backfires on me !!!!

My son informed me this past Thursday that Kamryn called him to tell him Elijah is not his son. I got in touch with Kamryn and she said the Child Support people told her that this guy Jesse who took a DNA test is the father. I am not sure though. I am not sure she is telling the truth. I told her that if she does not want Chris to be a part of Eli's life I totally understand, and that me and Alejah can still have a relationship with him without involving Chris. She really stuck with her guns though. I asked her as soon as she gets this confirmation from the Child Support office to please let me know. My heart really hurts on that one. I am very convinced Eli is Chris's. He looks exactly like him. hhmm oh well.

Yesterday was so fucked at work. I mistakingly gave back too much money in change. $20.00 to be exact !! I felt so dumb and embarrased. I felt like my co-workers thought I took the money. Of course I DID NOT !!!! I could never do that. I feel guilty just for not holding the door open for I paid $20.00 out of my personal money for this next week so we would not get red flagged. Mind you I am going to get my wages garnished and every penny counts right now. And with graduation next weekend I am not sure how I am going to handle this. oh well, it will all work out !!! But I feel like I've let everyone at work down. Work is the only place I can feel like I have some sort of control. eeeggh.... now that is shot to hell...

Alejah is in Reno tonight. So I am just going to completely nerd out and shut myself off to the world and eat and watch tv and play my Words with Friends tonight. What a loser !!!

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

soooo my son felt compelled to text me to let me know he is homeless. It is not my fault he is abusive with his girlfriend and threatened her so she kicked him out. More power to her !! Get a life kid !!!! UUgghh
Man o man it just kep coming today. My wages are gonna be garnished from an old credit card. Old ..... I just wanna drink. Tequila would be good, but I will have to settle for cheap wine.
My mom got her blood work back and it was good, now just waiting for the results of the CAT scan.
Next week is graduation and the whole family will be here. The mormons and the "other" family. Niiiiice !!!

Monday, May 24, 2010


So I am taking this Ginseng. I LOVE it. My mom went to Truckee Meadow Herb Company in Reno and got some Rasberry leaf tea for the helps with the whole functioning thing in the female organ parts. I also brought some to work so these girls can function correctly...:) and stop being beotches. And already they are saying that thier cramps are not so severe and things are much smoother for them !!! The Ginseng gives me tons of energy....awesome.

So chris came in today to say "HI" and attend one of his girlfriends drug court hearings with her. Some how we always start a casual harmless chit chat and it ends up with him recalling some distorted memory that is not correct and me trying to defendant it. I had to walk away..... and now I feel bad. uugggh

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Workin weekend...

Worked a lot this weekend. Went on to the Courthouse on Saturday and had to get caught up on 3 weeks worth of Drug Court and DUI Court minutes that is growing steadily every week. Damn drug addicts and alci's. OK, can't blame the alci's but stop the drugs OK !!! It is making waaaay to much work. But it all was worth it. Came home and went directly to El Charro's and drank margarita's and ate fish taco' I can live on those (and the tequila)...mmm. Today I worked at the firm cleaning for about 6 hours. All I can say is .. it's money !!! I could write a book on that alone. LMAO...the quirks those attorney's have and little hiding places..... so funny !! I plead the 5th.

So my stepdad told off his nephew and POS wife and packed up and left and got home today. I really hope he can find a job here. I am cringing though at the fact they want to share a rental. Uughgh I am not sure how I feel about that. There would be absolutley no privacy.....hhmm
And that sure would not look very good for me....42, single, living with parents...uumm I don't think so.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Ok, soooo here we go !!! So apparently I am a horrible mom because I did not invite my daughter to join me for a very last minute sushi invite last night. Boy oh boy did it make for a NOT good evening. Ended bawling my eyes out and wondering WTF??? However all is well today. Up down Up down up down....seatbelts are required !!!!!

My son poked his head know....needed money. Gave him a little. At least I know he is eating. He is still clean and sober which is really good. Just needs to change the way he thinks. You don't look for a job in an extremely bad economy that will only suffice to your career path. You get an job to feed your ass. It is all about $$$$ baby !!!! Nope he does not get it. BUT there is always a girl out there suckered into taking care of him. Waiting for a light bulb to go off and when it does I have a feeling it will blind us all !!! Looking forward to it.

My mother is not doing to well. Her stomach problems are increasing and she is in pain all the time. Throws up a lot. I think her Pilori could be back or it is her Gall Bladder OR both !!!! I worries me to death. My stepdad is in Washington trying to find work. He is old school and believes in supporting his family. He gets up there to stay with his piece of shit nephew and his alcoholic, abusive, sabatojing (sp?), manipulative wife...who I would love to meet just once....ONCE !!!! Bitch.... anyways, My poor stepdad is right on the edge of being hired for security in a nuclear storage facility for the government and this bitch is making him want to ditch his one last test this monday to come home....hhhmmmm

This weather sucks. It makes me want to eat and then eat more. Tonight I have been invited to mexican food and margharitas!!! Soooo I am hoping my daughters plans to Reno don't go through so I have a DD......yay!!!

Back to work.........yep work.....on a Saturday. I am so behind it is causing sever anxiety.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Well, this is my first time blogging so lets see how this goes....