Divorced ? Yes...uumm not really...

Why do I get so defensive when someone who knows I am single asks if I am divorced ?  I found myself lying when this question was asked to me a couple days ago.  After I said "yes", I caved and finally admitted I had never been married and felt this horrible need to explain myself.  Being 43 and never married puts me in the category of "Something must be wrong with her".  Well folks NOTHING is wrong with me !!  I am actually the most emotionally healthiest I have ever been in my life !! With no baggage.  I am content and have a great job and can support myself and my youngest (adult) child who still lives at home (yes, I know, I know !!).  YES, I said child.  I have had a child out of wedlock.  Yikes !! Right ?? Oh get over it !!  I have had a couple long term relationships and even engaged twice.  And my fair share of short term !  

I just have not found my husband........yet !! And I know he is out there cause I am a total catch  :)

  

A night of good food, friendship and music....

Saturday night ending up being like a little piece of heaven.  Being in excellent company we embarked on a fantastic discreet restaurant that specialized in small plates (tapas) named "Bite" in Incline Village.  What a freaking good dinner and the drinks were perfect.  The bartender made these drinks like they were a piece of art.  Risotto balls, Spinach and goat cheese salad, Ahi sliders and grilled fish silver dollar tacos topped off with wine, Arrogant Bastard Ale and a killer tequila drink that knocked my socks off....literally !!!  Then off to the Crystal Bay Club to see an awesome musician...Chuck Prophet and the Mission Express.  OK, so I have to say it kinda was a bummer that hardly anyone showed up, BUT on the other hand it was TOTALLY awesome at the same time.  They rocked for 2 1/2 hours.  It was so much fun.  We really should have stayed for the after party but we did not get home until 2:00 a.m.  Next time, the after party will be for sure !!  These nights out are so very well deserved and needed !!

Recovery in the world of brain injury...

Pa is recovering really well.  Had first doctor's appointment with the brain doctor that performed 4 craniotomy's and soon to be 5th in July.  The recovery has been uplifting, eye opening and at times...humorous !!  That darn  helmet he has to wear is so cute.  And what is the best part is that he does not care !!  He will go to any store or restaurant with that helmet on and not be embarrassed...that is until someone starts staring.  But that is ok !!  I stopped by one Sunday to start dinner for my mom and he was sitting in his chair eating potato chips and cheese dip...taking a knife and spreading the cheese dip onto each chip and he did not remember if he had lunch or not. Aaah  the innocence that has actually come back.  Kinda ironic !

Uncle.....

My ex called me tonight because our daughter still won't pick up the phone when he calls her.  She just feels at the end of her rope with him and I can't say I blame her !!  So I pick up the slack my kissing his ass so he will be  back off for a week or so and then the excuses (on my part) start all over.  Sooo because of  my "ass kissing" he is just so damn grateful that I am his best friend and he wants to "give it a go" .... again !!   OK, so I laughed out loud.  I did not mean to hurt anyone, but COME ON !!  I very cautiously told him that we are so much better as friends.  blah blah blah...as the vomit comes up the back of my throat....

Shit List,,.

Well I seem to be on numerous family members shit lists.  Since I am not able to drop everything at the drop of a hat and buy a plane ticket or rent a car to drive to the neighboring state I am a "flake".  Dear me, I have two jobs and a mother with a husband who has had a brain bleed and who needs help with him regularly and not a bank account to support the travel.  Geeeez.  What to do !!??  I really want to get away and see that side of my family but I just cant afford it and there is no offer of help. So there !!!!  BLLLAAAHHH ...

Anywho...my DD is out on a date with a boy who has a name that is the same name as a town in Wyoming.  I cant help but refer to it every time she mentions him.  lol kinda funny.  Thank god somebody in this family has a social life.  Maybe one day mercy will be shed its light and I can get me a life and tell everyone to screw off !!

Looking forward to taking off for the weekend.....HOPEFULLY !!!  To my uncle's winery for "Passport".  I really need some time away from the drama !!

Ciao...

He's home and long road...

My stedad is finally home.  He is doing well.  Will need to have the flap put back on his head in a few weeks and that cause us a lot of anxiety.  We don't want any recurrence of swelling....AT ALL !!!  So day by day is what we will take and not take anything for granted.  I will NEVER take for granted being able to put on my pants by myself and being able to brush my teeth by myself.  GRATEFUL !!

Well, I have been pondering my workaholic, no time for anything social life lately and I think I really need to get busy getting some men.  I really need to start dating or something.  I am really wanting someone to do fun things with.  It has been long enough.  I am healthy, independent, fun and I just want to meet some fun guys !!  But I have NO IDEA how the hell to do it !!  I live in a small town and have a public job.  Not a good combination.  The online singles websites are nothing but a meat market and that turns me off.  What's a girl to do ??  **sigh**

I am so excited for May.  My very good friend and I are going to see Chuck Prophet in a free show.  This is so very cool !!  This is one of the performers we were able to see in Seattle last year.  It will be so much fun !!  And we are also going back in August to Seattle to attend this music festival again.  Awesome.

Finally Home...

2 days ago my stepdad came home from Neuro Rehab !!  He will need to go back in about 3 to 4 weeks to have the missing part of his skull put back on, but so far so good.  He has appointments 7 days a week, so the driving schedule is extremely hectic and my poor mother who is carrying the brunt of all of this is a total rock star. My stepdad is so lucky to have her.  NOBODY messed with him in the hospital with my mom there everyday.  I can only pray that I will have someone to be there for me if I (god for bid) ever need to be in the hospital for a long period of time.

Sooo this past week at 6:00 a.m. in the morning I got a lovely efing phone call from the "Court Services" in Reno regarding my DS.  They wanted to confirm that I knew him and wanted me to confirm an address for him.  Which I could not do, since I have not idea where he is living.   Since he has not contacted me since last August. I did ask the Clerk what he was being charged with and she did tell me that he was being charged with Possession of Drug Paraphernalia.  I gotta tell ya that it confirmed what I originally thought when I saw him a couple months ago.  He looked like shit and I knew he was up to no good.  Well I could not confirm an address, but it was nice to know he was alive.  *sigh* :(

Well, I finally have 2 days off this weekend and I don't have to be running anywhere going mach 12 with my hair on fire now that my stepdad is home.  It is nice to take a break and relax.  Been a long while.