Shit List,,.

Well I seem to be on numerous family members shit lists.  Since I am not able to drop everything at the drop of a hat and buy a plane ticket or rent a car to drive to the neighboring state I am a "flake".  Dear me, I have two jobs and a mother with a husband who has had a brain bleed and who needs help with him regularly and not a bank account to support the travel.  Geeeez.  What to do !!??  I really want to get away and see that side of my family but I just cant afford it and there is no offer of help. So there !!!!  BLLLAAAHHH ...

Anywho...my DD is out on a date with a boy who has a name that is the same name as a town in Wyoming.  I cant help but refer to it every time she mentions him.  lol kinda funny.  Thank god somebody in this family has a social life.  Maybe one day mercy will be shed its light and I can get me a life and tell everyone to screw off !!

Looking forward to taking off for the weekend.....HOPEFULLY !!!  To my uncle's winery for "Passport".  I really need some time away from the drama !!

Ciao...

He's home and long road...

My stedad is finally home.  He is doing well.  Will need to have the flap put back on his head in a few weeks and that cause us a lot of anxiety.  We don't want any recurrence of swelling....AT ALL !!!  So day by day is what we will take and not take anything for granted.  I will NEVER take for granted being able to put on my pants by myself and being able to brush my teeth by myself.  GRATEFUL !!

Well, I have been pondering my workaholic, no time for anything social life lately and I think I really need to get busy getting some men.  I really need to start dating or something.  I am really wanting someone to do fun things with.  It has been long enough.  I am healthy, independent, fun and I just want to meet some fun guys !!  But I have NO IDEA how the hell to do it !!  I live in a small town and have a public job.  Not a good combination.  The online singles websites are nothing but a meat market and that turns me off.  What's a girl to do ??  **sigh**

I am so excited for May.  My very good friend and I are going to see Chuck Prophet in a free show.  This is so very cool !!  This is one of the performers we were able to see in Seattle last year.  It will be so much fun !!  And we are also going back in August to Seattle to attend this music festival again.  Awesome.

Finally Home...

2 days ago my stepdad came home from Neuro Rehab !!  He will need to go back in about 3 to 4 weeks to have the missing part of his skull put back on, but so far so good.  He has appointments 7 days a week, so the driving schedule is extremely hectic and my poor mother who is carrying the brunt of all of this is a total rock star. My stepdad is so lucky to have her.  NOBODY messed with him in the hospital with my mom there everyday.  I can only pray that I will have someone to be there for me if I (god for bid) ever need to be in the hospital for a long period of time.

Sooo this past week at 6:00 a.m. in the morning I got a lovely efing phone call from the "Court Services" in Reno regarding my DS.  They wanted to confirm that I knew him and wanted me to confirm an address for him.  Which I could not do, since I have not idea where he is living.   Since he has not contacted me since last August. I did ask the Clerk what he was being charged with and she did tell me that he was being charged with Possession of Drug Paraphernalia.  I gotta tell ya that it confirmed what I originally thought when I saw him a couple months ago.  He looked like shit and I knew he was up to no good.  Well I could not confirm an address, but it was nice to know he was alive.  *sigh* :(

Well, I finally have 2 days off this weekend and I don't have to be running anywhere going mach 12 with my hair on fire now that my stepdad is home.  It is nice to take a break and relax.  Been a long while.

Progress....and its Friday !

I just received a wonderful call about my step-dad.  They performed a swallow test on him and he passed so now they can start him on solid foods this afternoon. Yaay !!  And they will be releasing him  to come home in 1 week.  He will have to go back in 3 weeks for his next CT Scan and 5 weeks for the replacement of the flap in his skull.  I am so thrilled he has such a strong will to live !!

Now with this good news comes the subject that my mom broached with me about sharing a rental with them.  *SIGH*... we have talked about this in the past in case anything ever happened, however I never thought anything would happen.  I DO NOT want to share a house with my parents.  I have my DD and 2 cats.  They have 2 dogs.  I would have no privacy...at all !!  This is just so damn stressful...I pray about it everyday and hope that it will be "taken care of"...

Meanwhile it is Friday, payday and time for Tequila....Cheers !!

Son...

I am struggling on whether to "hunt" my son down to let him know about his grandfather.  The other evening my daughter mentioned to me that maybe I should find him to let him know about his g-pa's health situation.  My DS has not contaced me since August and as for the rest of his family it has been years.  I feel that if he really wanted to be involved he would stay in contact.  Well.....I did try to contact him but he changed his number and did not tell anyone (another clue he does not want to associate).  However me and my brilliant investigative skills I found a common friend that has his new number.  I texted him to please call me and the immediately respoded with "huh why?" and nothing since.  So I feel ok with not pursuing this any further.  It sure hurts though to not have him around in a regular fashion.  Even just on occasion.  I know he is troubled and possibly using drugs, but I sure miss him !!!  *sigh*

My stepdad gets moved to a neuro rehab today !!  This is wonderful.  He will be only 10 minutes from home for my mom.  I hope that he will only have to be there for a few weeks.  He is very ready to start getting better.  I am thrilled. 

Blood Clot....gahhd

So life again throws a little twist in normalcy.  3 weeks ago my poor stepdad had to be careflighted to a hospital in Reno due to a blood clot on his brain (Subdural Hematoma).  My mother who the doctors have credited for saving his life has been at his side everyday, all day !!  What a freaking battle this has been.  This man who was very healthy, active and life loving had a burst blood vessel and forever everyone's life has now changed.  Brain injury really sucks.  4 brain surgeries in 3 weeks and now they finally just removed a portion of his skull to allow the brain to swell, which has been a good move.  However, now there is a fungus infection that is causing hallucinations, fevers and very odd behavior.  We have a battle ahead.  Once he gets into rehab I pray he can get some of his functioning life back.  Day by day...

He was moved to the Neuro Unit at 5:00 this morning, so hopefully now he will be able to get the physical therapy he needs and the sleep he has been deprived from in the ICU...

My DD had an interview on Monday with an Orthopedic office for a back office training position.  This ended up being something a lot more than we thought.  Whether she gets the job or not, just the interview experience was good for her.  I am really proud that she followed through with it.

No wonder I left him....asswipe !!

Yep, I started it with "Asswipe".  It is the most appropriate word I can think of.  My daughter's father...ok ok "my ex" sucks ass !!  After many years of severe drug abuse and abandonment with no interest in a relationship with either of his children my daughter out of the goodness of her heart decided she wanted to try to get to know him about 3 years ago.  When she decided that she wanted to see him he was serving a sentence in the Metro Jail in the city where he lived.  After that visit he wrote her regularly until she was actually ready to talk to him on the phone with my assistance and then after a good year she finally started talking to him on her own.  She has always been very skeptical about him "falling off the wagon" and he knew that if he screwed up once she would cut if off.  So over thanksgiving he had made plans to go back and visit my family and while we were there go see him also.  Well due to an dental emergency and a sick cat our travel money was gone in one day so I had to back out of our plans.  He flipped out so bad that he threatened to take 2 shots of Vodka and a Lortab.  Welp, that was it for her.  She said that that was too much pressure for her that he would blame us not making the trip for his "falling off the wagon" as much as their relationship was based on his sobriety.  So the asshole actually called her last week and told her he was "done" and that he could not "do this" anymore.  DO WHAT you asshole?  Be a father?  Oh my goooooodneess.  Like I would have ever expected anything more....shame on me.
NO WONDER I LEFT HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE !!!
My sweet girl is so strong and thank god did not listen to his message, she just deleted it.  Saved her a broken heart.  The one that opened this up for a second chance in the first place.
*sigh*